Sunday, August 23, 2015


I want to hit rewind.
I want a do-over.
I want to restart:

Begin again!
Leaving out the lessons:
Fuck ups
Poor choices

I want to be 18 again.
With life ahead of me:
Blank slate
Empty page
White canvas

BUT knowing what I know now.

Who would I be?
What would I do?
What would life be like?

Questions without answers…

Saturday, August 22, 2015

Longlining with Wanda

With my dear Wanda the Fjord.
Today was my second time back to CKRH all Summer. It was good to see everyone, especially all the horses. 

BUT the biggest thrill was I got my first lesson in long lining with Wanda!  (Similar to driving mules...)
Not Wanda!

I walked with one of the professional handlers with her explaining what she was doing, how to do it and what I needed to watch for. After about 15 minutes, Wanda was nice and calm and I was handed the reins... It was thrilling and humbling. 

I have so much to learn. So much to remember and to be aware of. Communicating with a horse with words, touch and total concentration is magical.
I am blessed that Wanda is such a patient and sweet horse and will let me learn a new skill. 

Animals are my heart. They really are.

Saturday, August 15, 2015

Back in the barn

Back in the barn, at long last.

I have been away from the barn for months. It was not the Summer I had planned, there were lots of distractions, frustrations and overtime at work. So my Friday barn time was pushed to the back burner....

But yesterday, FINALLY, I was back. I was warmly greeted by the other volunteers, barn cats and horses.

Wanda, my favorite female Fjord, remembered me. She rubbed her huge head up and down on my shoulder and licked and nuzzled me.

Wanda love!!!

Jewel the barn cat came trotting, meowing all the way, to be scooped up and scratched for a long time. She has obviously been neglected all Summer and let me know how terribly pitiful she was...
Jewel the barn cat

Fabian was new to the rotation but I had met him before. I went in to pick his stall, (cleaning up poop) and he did "the lean". I have found if horses are comfortable with me they will often lean on me and sigh. It's a huge trust thing, both for them and me. It could be dangerous to have a 2000 pound animal "lean" on you, especially if you are between them and the wall, but these horses are great and I trust them for the most part. 

It was a lovely day at the barn; the temperature was moderate, the big fans were turning creating a breeze, the smell of hay and horse poop acted as aromatherapy for me. It had been too long a time away but I was so grateful to be back. 

Horses heal my heart...