Tuesday, March 29, 2011
Shadows and Shinies
They almost won.
I hate when I get into this state. I have no control, I am irrational and fearful of everything. I am overwhelmed.
I tried to wean off my meds. Big mistake. I became a blithering idiot. I couldn't stop crying. I was afraid of "EVERYTHING".
I would cry and apologize and repeat over and over, "I HATE THIS" to the hubster.
He's seen the shadows too.
There have been too many shadows lately. Cancer casts a long, hateful darkness over my family and friends. The Bank looms over our house. The world has seemed pretty bleak.
But there are shinies awaiting. The Bradford pears are blooming. The Redbuds are out. The family next door to where we are moving have a Golden Retriever that looks as if it could be Jake's grandpa.
I am awaiting the coming of spring. And taking my meds again. I can wean off later...