I can't believe it has been almost a month since I blogged.
This month has been the longest yet the fastest I have experienced in a while.
It started with the glorious fiery leaves on trees that I love and then in an instant there are bare branches and gloomy weather heralding winter...
I have hauled out comforters and quilts, my snuggies to keep the cold away. Last night was a sure sign as I woke up at one point to find not only a husband in bed, but two cats and a dog! Seems winter is approaching.
I will be glad when 2009 is over. This has not been the finest year for our family. I think in some ways this has been the hardest year of our marriage. We have hit rough patches but they were brief and we were younger and managed to bounce back faster.
This year took its toll on us: financially, mentally, physically and spiritually.
But we did not give up, we held on and we are coming out on the other side.
However we could not have made it without friends and our beloved family.
More than anything I have learned this year, it is this. I am loved. Not that I have doubted it, but my family (both sides mine and the hubsters, I can't separate them anymore, they just are MY FAMILY) have come through for us in abundance. I have called on them more than usual to help and they have not once said no to me. I am thankful for all of them. For taking the time to listen to me in the throes of self pity. To dry my tears, to hold my hand, to talk me out of my anxiety attacks and stupid ideas. But most of all I am thankful for their unquestioning, unconditional love. So while I will be glad when the bad parts of this year are over, I will be remembering the love that was there during the dark hours. I will be grateful that I had family and friends who stuck by me. I have no idea how I can ever repay what they have done for me, other to say thanks and let them all know how very, very much I love each and every one.